Cancer

But she is so young
They would say
When they found out

As if
Life
Would be so polite
As to wait
For old age
To start
This fight

They want to know
Why
Anything
To untangle
Their future
From this existential scare
Must be the purple hair
You won’t catch me with that
Anywhere

But no one is safe
From suffering
All we control
Is what we choose
To do
When it comes

Fight
Flee
Deny
Or
Sit with
And drink tea

I have done all of these
When suffering came to me
Thrashing around
In a wide open sea
Searching for an anchor
To hold me
Reprieve
So I could relax
And finally breathe

This anchor
Is God to me
In a finite world
So intricate
That to our minds
The possibilities are infinite
I choose to see
A God
Who loves me
A place where I can be
At peace
A Love
That breathed me into
Being
That holds me
When I am grieving
That greets me with
A twinkle of joy in Its eye
When I grow
Struggle
Thrive
And when I
Die

Grief

You are so beautiful
When you grieve
I whisper
Imperceptibly
Because
We both wish
For you to be
Happy

It is not our role
To dole
Out the suffering
It follows its own
Wild
Nature
Weaving
In and out
Of our lives
Weaving
Us all
Together
Forever

Manifest destiny
The power of one
We see what destruction
This mantra
Has done

Grief is the stumble
The broken foot
The incessant reminder
That we sometimes
Need
Other
To stand up
And recover

Absence

Absence
Opens
My eyes
Wide

How could I
Have ever
Rushed through
A hug with you
Exchange of words
Was
Lovely too

I could feel
The universe breathe
In your
Heart beat

Swim
In the scent
Of you
Held close to your
Skin

Heart awakens
In the now
From memories
Of then

Grabs
The bright colors
To paint the
Wide open blue sky
Golden fields of wheat
Soft green grass
Nestling my feet

Sweet summer scent
Warm summer breeze
Laughter of family
Heart dutifully records these

Intimate memories
From which she will pull
One day
When absence once again
Graces her
Doorstep
And her ache
Breaks
The dull hue
Presents the threshold
Crossing
Will rebuild her
Anew