Thick

It is
Such
A thick stew
Noticing
The love
In every
Single
Thing
That we
All
Do

Heart
Tender
Enter
The world
Of a million
Nerve endings
Feeling the
Fragile weight
Of morning
Dew

Look for the love
You will always find it
The question is
Have we aligned it
With what is
Or stowed it
Away
For another moment
Another day
Unaware
Of how it withers
And poisons the
Soul’s soil
With the waste

Taste
The blood’s iron
On the tongue
Washed
With the salt
Of soft tears

Let them fall
Let them mix
Isn’t this
The crux
If all of us
Who
In the Finite
Exist

Well
It is a fine
Night
To lay
Splayed
On the floor
Realize
That this heart pumps
Blood
As well as gold
Pray
For strength
As these old
Arms
Stir
Stir
Stir
The stew
Infuse
Love
Into every thing
That I
Say
See
And do

Look

How does one
Outrun
Ones self
When that
Howling voice
That makes you
Want to hide
Is coming
From inside
Your own head

When it reverberates
Off the walls
Threatens to shatter
All
Of the windows
And the only space
You can find
Is when you
Run
Outside
Of your own
Home

Cold
Shivering
Alone

Fling
Pleas
For reprieve
First
In a whimper
The better
To hide
But when the voice
Comes
As it always does
The pleas
Turn to screams
As the one
Shatters into a hundred
Scatters
Every direction
Away
Perfect
Prey
For fear
To gobble up
One
By
One

Run

But
There is nothing
To run
From

I am the fear
And no matter
How many times
I tear
Myself in two
I will find
My fear
Anew

But
Look harder now
Rest
Catch your breath
Look deeper now
Can you also make out
The little gleaming bit
Of Infinite
God gave to you?
The way
She holds you
Even as the Finite
Is shattered
Gathered
Rebuilt
A new
Different
Life
Carved out
For you

The road ahead
May be
A treacherous
Dead end
But sister
Please
Turn your head
A little
To the left
Let
The tremors of change
Pass through you
Break you
Remake you
Let
The left foot fall
And then the right
Or maybe
Just crawl
Along the new road
You didn’t see
Let
Her guide you
Let
This soften you
Let
Love carry you
Through
To
The new path
Made
Just for you

Promised Land

I have found
The land
Of milk
And honey
And I never
Want
To leave

Curled toes
Relax
With you

Chest
Free
From the constant
Seize
With you

Breath
Slows
Makes love
With my heart
And I
Come home
To me
With you

Soft
Doe sigh
When it is finally time
To say goodbye

Peace
Free
Eyes
Able
To see
The beauty
All around
Me

But
Not for long
Never for long

Time brings
Boulders
Of chaos
And fear
Screams
It’s not safe
Here

And I once again
Need
Comfort
And care
Assurance
Inspiration
The intimacy
Of your melodic voice
That hits that note
Just right
Signaling
All of the pieces of me
Back home

Home
Home
Home
To the body
That stands
For
One
Precious
Moment
In the promised
Land

Lost

Why
Do I fail
My son
My heart
This way

Goddamnit you dragon
Can’t you just
Wait
While I walk
Him
To his
Classroom
Without
Pulling away

Fuck

Fangs
Sink
Deep
Into the pink
Flesh
Of an apple
Plucked from its mother
Before it was ripe
Just so
It could ripen
In isolation
In service
Of perfection
Upon meeting
It’s devourer
On the sterile
Set
Of a grocery stand
Humans circling
Hunting
Hungry
For food
Gathered
Butchered
Packaged
Cleaned
By another
Just so
They can move
Seemlessly
From the hunt
To the spa
Or to work
In a job
Where
Imperfection
Is unprofessional

I cannot believe
I would sacrifice our
Bond
In service to
School
To the whims
Of a culture
That clearly
Doesn’t give a shit
About helpless kids
Over the NRA
Boy band
That has its hands
Wrapped around
Our throat

I am a fool
Piercing my own heart
With my claws
God
Help me stop this madness
Help me chose love
Over armed slavery
To my own wounds
Help me chose
Together
Help me stop
Drawing pictures
And rooms
And worlds
Of isolation
Where my son
And my heart
Cannot find me

God help me
I have sinned