How do I pause
Mid scream
To let
The cool breeze
In
How does my
Heart
Pause
Mid squeeze
To let
Your warm
Love
In
How do I meet
This cascade
Of pain
With the softness
Of moss
Instead
Of the rock wall
Of rage
Magnet
Holding my heart
Here
Hands
Fists
Claws
Wanting to tear
Open
Tender palm
Fingers
Of sand
Follow the siren song
On the wind
Until they are gone
And my palms
Dissolve
Running after them
Not willing to stay
And fling
A desperate
Goodbye
Destined
To die
Before it meets
It’s mark
Eyes
Bewildered
Wash
The scene
With tears
Wash wash wash
Maybe
When it clears
All will be well
I will be whole
But
I have eaten
The apple
And I know
Whole
Is not
Here to be found
Holes
Are here to stay
No matter how we
Divide them
Fight them
Flee them
Ignite them
Life
Conceives
The tree
Grows the apple
Juicy
And plump
In front of me
Sets in my belly
The need
To feed
And weeps
With joy
And despair
Love
And care
As I eat
To survive
Taste buds
Bright and alive
Rejoice
At the juice
The crunch
Of flesh
And I
Beg forgiveness
From the tree
For taking this apple
Consuming it
To give me
More time
On the clock
More energy
To walk
To the next tree
And the next
While I try
To work out
Why
I am
Even on
This journey