I have this poison
Inside of me
Jagged edge pressing
Deep
Into my heart
Taking away
My freedom
To be
Kind
Teeth clench
Mind wrench
The wires up from the floor
Fuck this reality
I will play
The innocent
No more
I hurt
I destroy
Maybe I hide
It all from my
Conscious mind
But it is not a question
Of if
But how much
I have eaten
This apple that I love
Watched grow from
A bud
Yet
I cannot starve
Right?
Life must go in
Right?
By what right do I stand here
Demand Your Love
By the right of the Agreement
Made above
My pay grade
I am experience
The finite
You are Love
The infinite
One without the other
Would not quite
Make a whole
So I am here
Make me whole
Love me whole
Love me even as you see
The whole
Ugly
Me
Please
Momma
Help me to be
Kind again
Help me to see
The light
Again
Wash the blood
From my hands
Or better yet
Love the me
That is bathed in the blood
Of anger
Rage
And
Entitled treachery