I cannot believe
We spent my time in session
With you explaining to me
That you have
Twenty eight
Other clients
That is your decision
Not mine
It is your job
To ensure you don’t get
Overwhelmed
Not mine
I spend my life
Worrying that my needs
Are too much
What are you trying to do
When you tell me
How overwhelmed you are
When I come to you
How does it help me
Experience
A secure relationship
When you say
“Reach out this way”
And I do
Then
When I come back
You armor up
In explanation
And solution
Completely missing
My need
For connection
I cannot be
Your source
Of enough
Your
Perfect
Project
I need to be able
To fall apart
Get mad at you
Need more from you
Experience hurt
From you
And have you
Still stay
Still
Be attuned
I need you to lead
In the connection
Process
I need you
To model
How to repair
I need you to stand
Firm
Say
I am here
And I care
I am here
And I care
And we will make it
Through
These are the only
Words
I need from you
In this place
I experience you
As distracted
Confused
Uncertain
And inadequate
What I need
Is the model
Of the
Good enough
Parent
Signal
That connection
Is important to you too
Sit with me
In my big emotions
And resist the urge
To fix, to do
Root solid
In our ability
To weather this
Tell me
I can trust you
Of all of these
The single
Most important
Thing that I need
Is your
Stability
Find God
Yes God
But do not
Put Him
Between
You and me
Do not use Him
As a shield
While you
Flee
It is your choice
To be here
You can always quit
But it isn’t going to be
Easy
And running away
When it gets hard
Is only going
To hurt me
So please
Figure out
What you want
Need
And then
Own it
And just
Tell me