Base

When the world
Has battered me
And I am bruised
And bloody
Through and through
Where do I go
To lick
My wounds?

Do I run to you
Generous warmth
Or away from you
Seeking the solace
Of being alone

This voice
That rises up
When I am hurt
And afraid
Is ancient
Powerful
The things
From which
Gods are
Made

Do I trust you
With
This seed
Of vulnerability
Flower petal
Dew drop
Dancing bubble
About to pop

Will you be gentle
Immaculate care
Or will your emotions
Take hold
Explode
Or even worse
Show only
Apathetic cold

It is a split moment
In the chaos of pain
But I know it so well
Live it
Again and again

Oh divine
Mother of mine
Hold us both now
Help us to find
That tender
Connection
Heart open
Rest
Regeneration

Help us
Change
The pattern
Of generations
Nurture this tender
Shoot
Of trust
Care
Repair
Intimacy
And
Celebration

Okay

These tears
Are how I breathe
Emotionally

They are how I
See
What matters
To me

Ooh Momma
How can it be
That I am
Simultaneously
Overwhelmed
And grieving
The second son
I wanted to be
With me
I wanted to see
Play with his brother
Fight
And come to his mother
As referee

I would have been a good
Referee
Or maybe terrible
But I won’t ever know
So might as well go
With good

Welcome to
The in-between
The best
And the worst
Hold no sway
Today
We are squarely in
Not great
Not bad
Alive
Not feeling
The thrive
Simply
Merely
Okay

The universe
Is insanely
Infuriatingly
Unruffled
By my moans
And my wails
I can stomp my feet
But the Earth
Remains
Inconceivably
The same

Momma moon
I open
Commune
With you
Let me bask
In your silver ray
Bathe me with
Your steadfast
Peace
Your acceptance
Of the reign of the sun
In the day
How you gracefully
Reflect her
Into the night
Gentle whisper
It is okay
To not be
The best
Or the worst
Or even
Okay

Leave

My finger feels
The tug
Of the tendon
Calling it to rise
Calling it
Away from you

The tiny gap
Between us
Arcs with connection
How can I ever leave
You
We are not through
I have not had enough
Of the touch
Of your precious skin
Nerve endings at attention
Drinking you in

My blood drums against
My finger tip
Searching for response
And finding none
Seeking to keep
The heat
Of your skin
Burning on

But you
Are gone

Your heart
Is at rest
And eventually
I know
It would be best
For me to
Release you
Release myself
Into a future
Without you
But for now
My fingers
Will not
Leave you

And even when
They do
My heart
Will never
Leave you
My soul
Will always
Search for you
And my love
Will always
Be
With you

Voice

I can hear
Your voice
Calling me home

And I
So
Deeply
Want to go

Not a single
No
In any
Muscle
Or bone

Ohhh speak to me
Words of
Kindness and grace
Speak to me
Let every
Sound
Place
A stone
In my path
To home

Just bask in the
Sound
Of your
Velvet silk
Voice
Just follow
Such a
Merciful
Simple
Choice

Sound
Turns to sight
Bass
Makes
A cozy bed
Comfort in the
Night
Treble
Lets in
The sun’s
Soft
Light
Laughter
In its full
Delight
Sings
All of the walls
Into delicious
Colorful
Life
Full, hearty grin
As your whisper
Brings in
Sweet summer’s
Mischievous wind

Home
Home
Home
So soft
And so warm
Home
Home
Home
Safety
Taken form

Eventually
Your voice
Fades
Away
But I am
Here
To stay
And after this nap
Bountiful rest
I will rise
Tend to my home
My refuge
My nest
Make my very best
Soup
Keep it warm
For you

Though you roam
Through the wilderness
Now
I know
You will return
Somehow
Some day
I know
Our hearts are
Connected
In a way
Beyond space
And time
And I know
This love
Is forever
Mine