Month: February 2021

I am drawn
To the drops
The waterfalls
The cocophony of
Reverberations
As water
Hits rock
Hits water
Hits rock

Don’t stop

Fill
The air
With movement
Joy
So I can sit here
Still
And grieve
My
Boy

Still reeling
From two years ago
Still feeling
The pull
Of a world
Of possibilities
That left me
Even though
I would gather energy
Expend
All of me
To bring it back

But no
This world
Is bigger than me
And what will be
Will be

This doesn’t just happen to me
This is universal
Loss is the guarantee
With love
And emptiness
Is all we see
Without love

So
What will it be?
Retreat from the world
A frightened
Angry beast
Or come out
Feathers in full time plume
Love
Anger
Agony
In full bloom
Churning
Rock
And wood
And death
And decay
Into fertile soil
To bring
Love
And life
In another form
Forth
To light up
Another day

I stand here
Naked in my love
It doesn’t matter
That Jasper cannot be
Bymy side
It doesn’t matter
That it has been two years
Since he died

My skin will let off
The heat of the sun
My heart has turned molten
Gold
Melted
Starting to run
Fast through my veins
No
I do not stand here
In vain

My voice echos
Through time
And through space
Jasper
Alive
In my love for him
Standing in
His
Proper
Place

Every time
I close my eyes
Settle
Into my heart
Body
Mind
I find
Grief
Piled high
Against the doors
And the walls
Blown in
On a frigid wind
Bypassing my defenses
As nature
Powerful in her knowing
And beholding
Is wont to do

What to do
Briskly sweep
It back out again
Put up another defense
No matter how fragile
And thin?

No
This is sacred
This is love
This is a gift
From the skies above

I will sit with each drift
In turn
Naked body
Warming
Soothing
Opening
To the icy
Burn

Patient

Time
Measured
Only
By the steam
Showing
This breath
This aliveness
This experience
That is mine

Feel
The steel wool
Of frost
Eventually
Melt
Into a cool
Pool
Quietly
Accepted
Into a gentle
Warp
Of the floor
Board

Sleep now
Rest
Into the warmth
Of Gods breath

Grief’s drifts
Come
And go
Sacred cycle
Sacred acceptance
Sacred soft snuggle
Into the Mystery
We may feel
But never
Hold