Cold
Rage
Seethe
Watch me pull
This precious sword
From its sheath
Pirouette
Slash
The silhouette
Of what we once were
No more
No more
No more
Eyes sore
From grieving
Tired
From seeing
The truth
The inevitable
What I want to name evil
But know
Is only
Life
Roughly coaxing me
From my hole
Sweet tender home
No longer mine
No longer friendly
No longer kind
Bed of needles
Once nestled
Down
Soft
Now the raised
Poison
Hackles
Of a beast
I’d long forgot
My shit
Is scattered across the floor
Do I make a run for it
Split
Or hold trust
Long enough
To gather it once more?
God
In the center
In the corner
At the door
Let me out!
Let me out!
This beast will devour me!
Oh heavens
Do you not hear me shout?
This
Here
Nidus
Of trust
Or doubt
Water swelling
Do I flail about
Give one last desperate
Shout
Or train my eyes
On God
Come what may
I have been here before
Lived
To love
Another day
Beast
I name you
Abandonment
Anxiety
Fear
Beast
I call you
To see me
Meet me
Here
Golden cloak on my shoulders
Sword of trust in my hand
By my side
My guardians
Stand
You can join us too
All you have to do
Is sit with me
Share my tea
Tell me what is hurting you
And propelling
You at me
Yes
This hole
We have found ourselves in
Is dark
Echoes deep wails
Of love awoken
Captured
And painfully
Set free
But we have God
We have protection
Even from this place
That we cling to
As the walls close in
And it begins
To suffocate
Time carries us on
There is nothing to do
Just hunker down
In this perfect temple
God has built
For me
And for you