Atonement

I have to drop
At least this veil
To let you through:

Here are the ways
I did not believe
I could have Love

Here are the ways
I tried to get something
That was close enough

Here is the monster
In the shape of me
Here is the soft hope
That we can strip away
The monster skin
To see what
Tender beauty
Lies within.

Beloved will you
See me
Standing
In the shards
Of wounded history?

Will you watch me
Carefully and
Lovingly
Piece myself together
From the parts of me
I could not hold
Before the magic that
You carried here for me?

Forgive me, Beloved
For who I used to be.
Forgive me, Mage
And set me free.

Rest

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It is time
It is done
The scramble to the rock
As the sea crashed into me
Is done
Now
She holds me
Strong
Steady
And whispers on the breeze
That it is time

Time to sit
Rest
Relax in this place
Close my eyes
Red from scanning
Searching
Weeping
Release my limbs
Heavy from holding
Tending
Keeping

It is time
To just be
No ego
No spirit
Journey
Calling me

She has me
I have Her
I am held
It is okay
To stay
Here
Rest
Here
Nest
Here
Love
Life
Here
Today

Psyche

In the wasteland of the psyche
I stand
Paper doll
Ready to fall
At the slightest breeze

What bothers me
Is how easily
The weather system of the psyche
Becomes the landscape
Of the body
Anxiety chills
Grief exhaustion
Joy dance
Anger flush

Where is my guardian
How do we respect
And contain
The psyche
Giant juggernaut
Psyche
Terrified child
Psyche
Warrior of love
Psyche
Forever companion
Psyche

My love
My storyteller
My refugee
Lost on the sea
I must live with you
And you must live with me
And though I may not like
All the ways you affect me
In fact you are me
And this is our
Reality
So take my hand
Exhausted but strong
Fall into my hug
Snuggle in close
Feel my warmth
Heart beating
Steady breathing
We go together
Or not at all
We stand together
Or not at all
We are together
Through it all

What is true

I am a powerful woman
I am a magical woman
I am a Priestess
I am a Queen

I can change
I have changed
I bring miracles
I transform

I love you
I choose you
I welcome your love

I want you
I receive you
I receive your love.

I am resourced
She holds me
I hold you up.

I love you.

I see you.

I am also loved.