Career Counseling

My gods
Bless in me
My hatred of
This tiny thing
This voracious
Infectious
Viral
Disease
Called Man.

Slaves made
To rape
The earth
And take
Her wealth
And lay
It on the altar
Of their
Rapacious
Vicious
Makers.

My gods
Who bless in me
The unquenchable
Flame
Of truth
That I have guarded
Against
Perpetual
Misguidance
And mendacious
Lies

These same gods
Have kept me
Will keep me
Alive
And teach me
To light
This false
World
On fire

To ignite
The battle
Destructive and final
Between gods
Demonic
Angelic
Harmonic
And Vile

To cleanse
The earth
Of her human infection
And end the
Infarction
To send home
These demons
To their place
In the stars.

My gods teach me
Magic
In whispers
And stories
The magic
To set free
The minds
Of afflicted
Invite them
To die
Sinners
Convicted
And give back
This land
To the creatures
That know
How to love
Their Great Mother

I love Her
Above all creatures
And beings
The once
And future
The Blessed
Beloved
The Righteous
And sacred
The Virgin Queen.

Clean

Beloved
What would I not lay
On the Altar of our love?

Demons
That have held me
Together
Since before
Forever.

Would I not
Release
Them
Completely?
Agreeing
To Undo
What deals
We have struck.

Even if I must
Dissolve
In surrender

Even if I must
Forget
What I remember
When I think
My Self
Together:

One Longing
One Blown by the Wind
One Searching
One Drawn Deeply In

One Hurting
One Victim of Sin

One Weeping
One Sleeping
One Moon Struck
Lone Wolf
Self Loved
And
Creeping
Through Darkness
Unseen and
Unseeing.

Would I not
For you, Love,
Even trust
God
To hold
My whole Being

So I could be free
From the contracts
I’ve struck
To protect me
From love

So that I might
Belong from
Here until
Always
Only and ever
Completely and freely
to your
Righteous touch.

Throne

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My throne empty
My vision of control
Crumpled on the floor

My soil fertile
Yearning for the seed
Cracking, boiling
In its aching, deep need

The kingdom cowers
In the wake
Of my controller’s
Pent up rage

What of this throne?
Who will step up
Who will own
The responsibility here
To keep me safe
To keep me true
To give voice to every bit of me
To determine what I let shine through

God, God
Standing with me
As I hold and comfort
This controller who has guided me
Kept me safe
Brought me here
Who is so exhausted
Done
Resentful
Rage-full

God
Will you sit on my throne
Guide me
Make me your home?

God
This throne is Yours
I am Yours
You are mine
We are now of one kind
Your will
My will
You say
How I operate today
No separation
Nothing to hold
Release the old
Let this seed sink in
And let rise
This oak tree
Trunk and branches
Holding me

God
What is this blessing
How can it be
That I am home
For You
And You are home
For me

The Garden

Like night
Blooming jasmine
I flower
For the moon.

Like the water
Over boulders
I weep
And shed
My womb

Like hope
For my Beloved
I waver
In the wind

But here
In holy darkness
I know
That he exists

Like sugar
From the sunlight
The sap rises
Within.

Like serpent
In the garden
I show myself
To sin

Like wisdom
From the tree
I know
My innocence

Like fruit
From a flower
I ripen
Deep within.

Here, Now

>>•<<
Almost to the top
Stop
Feel the swift breeze
Gently coax me to my knees
This now
This here
This is it
All that there is
Trees sway
Riding the electric wave
Of a storm temporarily held at bay

God
See me now
Because now is everything
See me here
Because here is everything

In the present moment
The tides of what was
And what may be
Swirl
Push and pull me
From my center
Into a false reality

But I am here, now
And anything else
Is a story
The truth of which
Is unknown

So God I call to you
Be here now
With me
See me
Let me feel the truth
Of Your connection
Let it be enough for me

God
In this one moment
Let me release the finite
And receive
Your
Infinity