These hands
Pulsing
Weary from grasping
Ripping
These wrists
Tightly wound with the shreds
These arms quivering
Tensing
Tearing
With patience and control
Slowly
Slowly
Making it last
Opening up space for
Every
Single
Fiber
To let loose
In its own time
A sigh
As it breaks in two
These tears welling
Spilling
This jaw clenching
This heaving of my chest
As my arms spread apart
The fabric gives way
In one final release
And one piece becomes two
Energy courses
Down
Up
Out of my body
My arms hang loose
My hands still clasping
My wrists still bound
In shreds
Holding
Savoring this
Holding
Until my hands
Are ready
To let go
To rest
To take up another piece
And tear it in two
Over and over
Again and again
Until finally
My rage is satisfied
And this shirt
Reduced to ribbons
Shredded
Like my heart